I have been a huge fan of the Biggest Loser since the first season. I follow several former "Losers" on both Facebook and Twitter. One of my favorite former contestants is Matt Hoover. I relate the most to his struggles, both physically and emotionally. I used to read his blog religiously and feel he is a great motivational speaker. His blog from a few days ago opened my eyes...he talked about "being in a funk".
In the last few months, I haven't been connected to many things I used to love. I have secluded myself and restricted social interactions if at all possible. I don't know why I have been hibernating, I just haven't felt like myself lately. I still go out and be social, but I don't take as much pleasure in things. Trivia is ok, but losing its luster. I keep making excuses for canceling on plans with friends (sick, too hot, no money). And although most of the excuses are true, if I really felt like going, I would find a way. This funk has also enveloped my training for the half marathon.
I have 5 weeks to prepare for this race and I am probably in the worst shape I can be to run 13.1 miles. Yet I still can't find the motivation to get out there and train. I found a program that will help me finish the race under the time deadline. What I need to find now is the energy to follow through. I had every intention of getting to the health club today to put in my four miles on the treadmill. My body decided I needed to stay in bed until 1pm. I need to figure out a way to push myself. To find a way to realize that if I actually work toward the goal, all of the other things will fall into place.
I was browsing some friend's photos on Facebook and see how happy they are...I want to feel that again. I want to feel like I am worthy of dating and find a good man, not the unemployed, pathetic men I have dated the last few years. One of the first steps to any "problem" is to admit you have one. I have a problem, I need to get off my ass and get moving. No more excuses. The next 5 weeks will be blogged so that I can document my progress. I will finish the race...I have 3.25 hours to finish 13 miles. I will get my medal. The first day of my new life is tomorrow.
Thanks Matt for the kick in the ass I needed.
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